5 years

Yes, if life could start all over again, I would still make the same choice, I would still choose to like you. 3 years, 2011, 2012, 2013, I don't even know how I survived and how I struggled through these in these 3 years. I wished to read through your mind, I wished to know what is my position in your heart, what do you think of me, the rate of my importance to you in your heart out of 10, and what are you thinking in your brain. I feel that I've found the feelings back after today. 5 years, we haven't talked face to face 5 years already. I never thought that we would hang out together. I remember I told you it'll probably be our primary school friends gathering for our next meet, but this was how things turned out to be. I got so happy when every time you talked to me first, but I got sad when every time you seen my message after all. Well, for the very first time I felt extremely secure to let my friend drive my car, because I trust you. You gave me the feeling that said you can, I felt secure and safe to sit beside you. I do really appreciate you drove me to the park just now, I enjoyed the journey. I like the moment when we stared at each other for a few damn seconds that I could see myself clearly in your eyes. How great if there was something that are able to record the every moment we spent together, record the every single word we said, so that I could replay it when I miss it. I had no courage to tell you all those things that I planned to say before we meet up. We had been stopped talking for one year until last year. Thanks god for letting me to bump into you last year. I was surprised by you that you could still remember the little thing which was you saw me in your school during my activity camp. Too, I bumped into you at queensbay last year. We met, although Penang is small, I strongly believe that it was actually god's arrangement, it was our fate. Honestly I didn't realise that you inbox me to wish me happy birthday every year, until last year when we started to talk again and I scrolled back our old conversation. Since then I kept reminding myself to wish you when your birthday reach, but eventually I forgot. 5 years, I didn't wish you at all. Everything has changed after 5 years, yes, our relationship changed, changed to a better us, a closer us, not as childish as last time anymore. Are we possible? What will happen in the future? Nobody knows. Do you believe in miracle? Do I believe in miracle? I hope that you are not merely a passerby in my life, I hope that we are the love that we want for each other. If we aren't together, it can be said that we are destined to meet but not fated to be together. Wish that you have the power and are able to succeed in the 'something' you didn't want to tell me what it is just now. I am so glad for everything that happened today, thanks, and all the best in life! :)